My life is in ruins

Life seems to be going from bad to worse. It all don't to communication.

My communication skills are not good. I get things wrong because I misread things like instructions, for example. Then I will assume I heard that info correctly (which, of course, it wasn't) and I mess things up.

People get angry. I don't take criticism too well, so I get a moody and angry, but carry on. I stay quiet inatead: no communication, no aggro. This only makes matters worse.

I feel like I'm suffocating over it. It is too stifling and I'm in flight mode with nowhere to flee to.

But, i don't want to run away. I want to understand and be understood. I want to be able to express how it feels. I'm alienating everyone that I love, so it's even hard to talk to another family member about it. I feel I've closed every avenue off, because I can't quite put into words that I'm in Hell, without making it sound like I'm an attention seeker.

I'm only seeking help! 😪